Transparency and Trust
Once a shaman said to me, “oh you carry lightning energy.” I’m glad I don’t carry that energy. He told me if I ever step out of alignment the universe will abrasively course correct. I knew exactly what he meant about this lightning energy.
When someone tells me a lie I feel it like a lightning bolt in my body. When something isn’t right it feels like I’m a cat with my fur being pet the wrong way. It physically feels awful to me.
Living in our lovely world has been painful as hell for me. However, I wouldn’t change it for anything.
I woke up this morning and I realized what a blessing all of this pain has been now that I know how to release it from my body. Love. Bringing love to the parts of myself that go into extreme judgment, feel unworthy, being constantly misunderstood are just a few of these places I’ve started to bring love to. I feel like I’m thawing out after being frozen.
As I’ve reached into this deep financial low with the farm I have found a piece of myself that I haven’t met yet. I love her. She’s the integral piece I needed right now.
I feel like I can finally celebrate the wholeness of who I am and the very unique skill sets that I hold because of my previous career and work as an energy healer.
I’m sure you already know this by now, I am a BIG picture thinker. That didn’t come with big-picture confidence. However, I hold this lightning energy so I can navigate into this unknown space because I trust what my body is telling me. Although there have been many times that I didn’t honor it, it is now my guiding light.
When I worked as a makeup artist for the media and for these businesses that directly impact our culture, I questioned so much about what was so uncomfortable to me. Let me start this by saying it isn’t the people. People are people. It is the structure of these companies that create the problem. It is the missing heartbeat of these companies. Most of them are based on money, power, and worst of all fear. There are hidden agendas everywhere that my big picture thinking would see. I felt like I was so out of place because I couldn’t conform to this way of thinking. Love has always been my religion. I have not always been a nice person, I have my moments of being very unpleasant so please don’t think I’m saying all this from a pedestal. I’m a person that wallows in humility often. I just see things differently. And that is my gift.
So in this low, I’ve rediscovered my “why” I have an opportunity to make a big impact by building a business with a heartbeat. I am dedicated to creating a space that brings peace, wonder, healing, and connection back to humanity through beauty and flowers, by building a company with transparency and trust.
I am rebuilding a better financial structure that works with this vision I have for sovereignty for humanity. I was still trying to play by the structures that don’t support my vision. I’ve found a way to rebuild. More on that later.
I felt it was important to tell all of you about this because you are the community I serve and vice versa. The emails I received after announcing that we wouldn’t be selling tubers were so heartwarming. Thank you for taking the time to write them. A few were the love that pulled me from the darkness. Thank you. How fortunate we are to share in our love for dahlias. 😍
We really are united by love for flowers. I promise to continue to grow this company with transparency so we can start to remember what trust feels like again. Thank you for being here.
With love and flowers,